[Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC


  • Paperback
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  • Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path
  • Lawrence Shainberg
  • English
  • 19 August 2019
  • 9780679772880

Lawrence Shainberg º 4 review

Read à Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path Û PDF, DOC, TXT or eBook Iritual journey Alternately comic and reverential Ambivalent Zen chronicles the rewards and dangers of spiritual a. An honest even bracing and humorous memoir that endears Larry S to me and also even helped my meditation on the cushion Watch out for your mind should be posted like a road sign at all zendoors I can t share his love of Beckett but that is beside the point Shainberg lets us see and feel how his meditative accomplishment and his humannness are inseparable and always bothered by trying to be inseparable Many Dharma memoirs fall into the pit of overemphasizing the folly of the author this one doesn tI loved the portrait of his parents and was relieved when LS found a decent Zen master

Read & Download ✓ PDF, DOC, TXT or eBook º Lawrence ShainbergAmbivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path

Read à Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path Û PDF, DOC, TXT or eBook Mbition and presents a poignant reflection of the experiences faced by many Americans involved in the Zen movement. This takes a different approach from most Zen books it s much of a memoir of the author s life in which Zen practice plays a huge part than a discussion of the usual Zen issues Which is totally refreshing Shainberg got involved with Zen in the early 50s and over the course of the next four decades the book ends in the mid 90s practices with and meets a number of well known figures in the Zen world and his portraits of them here are not all flattering so there s a bit of a Shoes Outside the Door feel to the book

Summary Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path

Read à Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path Û PDF, DOC, TXT or eBook Seeking help with his basketball game Shainberg embraced Zen Buddhism in 1951 and was catapulted on a life long sp. After sesshin this year I felt an urge to read books about Zen usually I want to read anything but not dharma books but memoirs of Zen experience First I turned to a book that only a sideways look at Zen by a man who practiced reluctantly Bones of the Master A Journey to Secret Mongolia by George Crane Then I reread for the third or fourth time my all time favorite memoir of spiritual practice Ambivalent Zen by Lawrence ShainbergShainberg has published fiction and non fiction including an excellent monograph on his favorite writer Samuel Beckett in addition to this memoir In a way this seems a book not only about his teacher and his practice but his whole life And he organizes it so that he shuttles through various time periods which skillfully comment on one another It s a virtuoso performanceShainberg followed his father s interest in spiritual matters the elder Shainberg made his money as a Memphis businessman then spent the rest of his life in an anguished but very sincere kind of seeking reading spiritual literature and seeking out teachers on a personal level Young Larry who was interested in his tennis game nevertheless attended talks by Krishnamurti1 and had lunch with Alan Watts Years later a woman friend got him interested in Zen and Shainberg embraced it wholeheartedly sitting multiple times per day and going on retreats His problem was that the practice seemed to cure his writing bug he didn t feel the need to write and sometimes wasn t able to when he was practicing most seriously The two most absorbing activities of his life were somehow at odds2 He struggled to find balance3He was also constantly he picked the right title for his book ambivalent about Zen We all have this feeling to some extent but Shainberg had it in spades He would want to go on retreat spend weeks anticipating it then get there and be disappointed feel like leaving once he actually did then immediately regretted it He hilariously illustrates the human tendency always to want the thing we do not have He also seems to be living out a version of his father s ambivalence The old man could never commit to anything Shainberg keeps committing then pulling backFrom the start he found himself in the Rinzai School of Zen which seems to include a greater wish for achievement than Soto and a competitive spirit though no Buddhist practice is immune from those things Almost immediately he ran into a series of Rinzai Assholes including one who had this to say about his posture How d you get that crooked spine accident or something I can tell you one thing if you want to study Zen you better get yourself straightened out Zen is posture and posture is Zen With a back like that you re wasting your time on the cushion The man later made this pronouncement on Shainberg s oryoki form You still don t get it do you When you finish eating your jihatsu should be tight all of a piece If you do it right it should look as if you ve never used it Yours my friend look like something you bought at a flea market Shainberg also ran into a fascinating character named Chang Wei who practiced and taught Zen along with various martial arts who claimed to be able to infuse people with his energy and to heal various diseases he sometimes even sent energy by phone putting the receiver near his hara during zazen The man had an interesting take on the practice of sitting meditation It is his view that one should never relax while on the cushion After sitting one should feel totally exhausted and those who don t can be sure they ve wasted their time That I would say is the polar opposite of how we practice Soto ZenBut because of the skillful way Shainberg alternates time seuences this was a canny strategy on his part the entire book is dominated by his portrayal of the man who ultimately became his true teacher Kyudo Nakagawa Roshi Kyudo became a monk at the age of six and lived a celibate life apparently because of a promise he made his own teacher the famous Soen Roshi He practiced for years with his teacher then had a small zendo in of all places Israel then founded the zendo in New York where Shainberg practiced with himNeither of the places he presided over was a major institution the zendo in Israel for instance where he spent thirteen years had fewer members than my own practice place the Chapel Hill Zen Center Kyudo nevertheless led the same daily with great devotion sitting for two hours three thirty minute periods morning and evening meeting with students and caring for the zendo He seems to have no ambivalence about Zen at all and his constant exhortations to Shainberg his fascinating pronouncements about Zen in general form the heart of the bookAmbivalent Zen has a particular poignance because Shainberg s last teacher before Kyudo Roshi Bernard Glassman recently died and Shainberg s portrait of the man is fascinating Glassman was three years younger than Shainberg famous as a Zen prodigy he sailed through the koans with Maezumi Roshi then was told by his teacher to leave LA and start a sister zendo in New York Glassman s teaching is often brilliant his disuisition on the Heart Sutra at least the way Shainberg renders it is one of the most fascinating I ve ever heard And he was anything but a Rinzai Zen Asshole a warm and encouraging manHe was nevertheless such a visionary that he couldn t help continuing to envision wanting a larger and complicated program getting further and further into debt he had cannily made Shainberg into one of his major officers knowing the man had money to donate He eventually got so involved in his various enterprises that he and many of his students abandoned zazen altogether behavior that would be scandalous in the Soto world Shainberg eventually left him for the much less ambitious Kyudo who always seemed satisfied with whatever modest enterprise he was running He was never famous like Glassman But he seems a truer Zen manI felt this book reached an apotheosis at the end something I hadn t noticed in previous readings There is a wonderful meeting between Kyudo Roshi and Shainberg s aging parents which expresses the essence of Zen and resolves any feeling of ambivalence that the reader might have The truth is that there are all kinds of ambivalences and paradoxes in the theory of Zen but in practice we wipe them away We re stunned to find out for instance that Kyudo prays every day for the people on his sangha and when Shainberg asks why he does such a thing in the midst of a non theistic practice Kyudo gives the true Zen response I have no idea When I pray I just pray He has the same kind of response to the elder Shainberg s favorite teacher Ask him has he read Krishnamurti Shainberg s father says Shainberg is acting as a translator between his parents and teacher because what with hearing problems and their various accents they don t understand each other Yes of course says Roshi when I ve relayed the uestion Very intelligent beautiful words Tell him Krishnamurti hates spiritual practice or any kind of formal meditation Laughing Roshi offers him a friendly pat on the shoulder Yes yes Very intelligent I feel same Then what s all that about says Dad waving his hand in the direction of the zendo How can he maintain this establishment if he doesn t believe in formal meditation Once again Roshi doesn t wait for me to translate Please you tell him I have no idea This is a marvelous and entertaining book by a true Zen student however ambivalent and rewards multiple readings I can t recommend it too highly


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    Summary Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path Lawrence Shainberg º 4 review [Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC An excellent entertaining and dare I say enlightening memoir by Lawrence Shainberg that I've been meaning to read since it came out in 1995 Took me so long to get around to it because Zen and its philosophy—its contradictions like perfect imperfection maybe but not maybe maybe—stuff like that twist up my mind and confound way worse than this sentence likely does for you Had I read the book when it came out I would'

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    [Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC After sesshin this year I felt an urge to read books about Zen usually I want to read anything but not dharma books but memoirs of

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    [Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC Read & Download ✓ PDF, DOC, TXT or eBook º Lawrence Shainberg Lawrence Shainberg º 4 review This was such a fun and fascinating book I was ambivalent about Zen myself but I committed myself to it for six months and decided it's not for me so I thought this would be a good memoir to help me make sense of my experience Inde

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    [Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC Read & Download ✓ PDF, DOC, TXT or eBook º Lawrence Shainberg Lawrence Shainberg º 4 review An honest even bracing and humorous memoir that endears Larry S to me and also even helped my meditation on the cushion Watch out for your mind should be posted like a road sign at all zendoors I can't share his love of Beckett but that is beside the point Shainberg lets us see and feel how his meditative accomplishment and his humannness are inseparable and always bothered by trying to be inseparable Many Dharma memoirs fall into the pit

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    [Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC Simply outstanding I found myself drawn into the story as if it was a novel and identified with the author's ambivalence around teachers and authority figures and people's willingness to surrender to authority figures even when their behavior doesn't seem to justify it I found his time with Bernie Glassman fascinating and

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    [Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC Lawrence Shainberg º 4 review Very honest warts and all memoir of one man's struggles with his Zen practice

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    [Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC Shainberg has a strange and deft touch in this memoir of his life through a succession of teachersNo one that I'

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    Summary Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path [Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC Lawrence Shainberg º 4 review This is a spiritual autobiography by a cranky neurotic Zen student He starts with descriptions of his father another spiritual seeker who was reading Krishnamurti and Buddhist books and going to an analyst in the late 40s Encouraged he pursues his own spirituality through Zen martial arts monastic and lay Buddhist practices I found his descriptions of Bernie Glassman's Zen organization in New York in the 60s

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    Read & Download ✓ PDF, DOC, TXT or eBook º Lawrence Shainberg Lawrence Shainberg º 4 review [Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC This takes a different approach from most Zen books it's much of a memoir of the author's life in which Zen practice plays a huge part than a discussion of the usual Zen issues Which is totally refreshing Shainberg got involved with Zen in the early 50s and over the course of the next four decades the book ends in the mid 90s practices with and meets a number of well known figures in the Zen world and his portraits of

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    [Lawrence Shainberg] Read Ambivalent ZenOne Man's Adventures on the Dharma Path ebook – Epub and DOC Read & Download ✓ PDF, DOC, TXT or eBook º Lawrence Shainberg Lawrence Shainberg º 4 review I'm newly exploring Zen this book made me a little worriednot enough to stop exploringbut mostly left me feeling a huge di

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